The Questions (aka Bearing My Soul Without Actually Bearing My Soul)

I stole this idea from a friend. We are similar in that we don't answer questions that we don't want to - so as not to lie. I try not to ever lie - with that comes a lot of avoidance. So, for your viewing pleasure... Here are the answers to various questions over the last month or so that I didn't answer because of one of the following:

1. I didn't want to - You didn't need to know
2. I was uncomfortable - You were uncomfortable
3. It would have been awkward
4. I didn't care
5. It benefited me in some way :)

Here are the answers (and only the answers) to those questions in no particular order. These are the honest things I would have said - not cryptic at all though they may seem that way. I decided not to put the questions in - for various reasons (mostly to protect me and others plus I'm not ready for that much bearing of the soul). So without further ado -

Answers:
1. Yes, yes and yes. Yes!
2. Not NA or AA, but that other one - that's me.
3. No and this could totally be something!
4. Honestly? It really won't happen like that - or at all.
5. Like is such a strong word.
6. Freaked out of my mind!
7. I probably could and should, but don't want to.
8. I've done almost everything... not quite all, but almost.
9. I wish it wasn't like this at all.
10. I couldn't care any less...
11. I wish... that you would just shut up.
12. You have no F-ing idea how much!

So there you have it. More clues to my sordid past. That is all that I can think of -So surmise from that what you will. If you think that you've found an answer in there - congratulations. If not, then you probably shouldn't ask because I probably won't answer.

But who knows - I might be in a giving mood...

Finally!

Just wanted to let you all know that something has finally worked out in my life. It is such a rare occasion that it had to be blogged about. For the last about five years of my life I have been busy working job after job, interspersed with some schooling and more often than not working two jobs at once. Well, I will finally (at least for the summer until a new ski season starts) be working one single job! Woo!

So I'll still be at the treatment center - just getting paid more and having way better hours! How much better you ask? I won't have to get up at 5:30am any more and if you know me then you are aware that I am not a morning person, so this is a very good thing. I also will have at least two days off a week! 2 whole days! Every week! This hasn't happened since 5 years ago... I could almost cry.

I called the spa in Park City to let them know that I would be leaving for the summer. It is totally slow in the summer - I wouldn't make much money anyway. So this Saturday will be my last day up there for the summer. I plan to give up one of those precious days off in the winter to pick up a couple of shifts and make some extra benjamins once it snows again (heaven forbid)!

Now the new position comes with tons more responsibility which scares me shizless at the moment. I think scared beyond all reason about covers it. But I think that it will be so good. Sorry not the most exciting post, it's no swedish fish - but I needed to put it out there! Finally :)

Swedish Fish

So... my newest obsession in life - Swedish Fish. I know, they are that good. Sweet, little, tender morsels of red 5, sugary goodness. You can't eat just one. Trust me and that huge bag that just sits there and calls your name... Impossible to resist. Now, I think we already know that I have no self control when it comes to sugar (Among other things -Seriously none, no self control at all - wink, wink - that's for Joe). I'm a whore for sugar (among other things) and I just want them (among other things). So there it is... my obsessive post of the day. Go buy some and bask in the sugar coma glory that is Swedish Fish.

The Nervous Breakdown

Here is a heart felt apology... I'm sorry. The great nervous breakdown of 2008 has finally taken place and I am slowly recovering. It has been building for quite a few months now and finding out that my boss who does interviews was out of town - the straw that broke the elephants back. It was brought on by a number of things in my life:

work
bills
work
money
work
friends
work
sleep
work

AND Lastly (but certainly number one)

The poor choices that I make on a daily basis that affect every aspect of my life that is the biggest one of all)

As for those of you that didn't know about the breakdown, it is because the Master Plan is working. So to all who had to suffer the wrath, the bitterness or psychoticness of the Rage, I'm sorry. You should be safe for a couple of months - after this week and next week are over :) By that point the work problem should be taken care of... hopefully.

Random Moments From My Life and Master Plan Update

I don't really have much to blog about today, but I thought that I would share with you some random snipets from my day and give a quick update of the Master Plan... enjoy.

I'm having a stroke! Or maybe I have Bells Palsy.
I think I need a stripper name - How about Mya Morefolk?
I need a drink...
Did you just hug me and pinch my a$$?
She's getting her "eyebrows" waxed.
You can play Snape, I'm going to be rich.
Are you pregnant or just getting fat?
Really? Jedi Training? You can really do that?

Master Plan
So the master plan is going well. Better than I thought it would be at such an early stage...

I have sucessfully alienated 3 major players! Only 2 to go. To the minor players: If I haven't talked to you in more than a few days - consider yourself out and checked off the list. I'm sure it was fun while it lasted, don't ever change... blah, blah blah.

I have decided to change my name and am currently taking suggestions. For some reason I think a stripper name is in order. No, I will not tell you which name I choose.

I've narrowed down the places I want to move, so that decision is very close to being made.

I've become more and more jaded as the days go on, which is fun. It is time for the full effect Master Plan. So watch out! No more Ms. Nice Guy. Not that I ever was very nice, but you get the idea.

So there you have it! Bitter and spiteful to the end... The Rage.

The Night I Was Molested by Emo Teenagers...

It's true, I was molested and shoved and smashed all by a bunch of emo-tastic teenagers. It was the greatest night!
Drive By, Billy Talent and of course My Chemical Romance all rocked my world. Seriously, it was so fantastic! Hands down - one of the best concerts that I have been to and I've been to my fair share. I was completely entertained - so entertained that I barely noticed:

1. the ugly couple in front of me - they deserve each other - they were jerks
2. the guy with sweat soaked long hair that he kept whipping around
or
3. the kid who kept pinching my arm and left a few nice bruises

I learned so much more, but it was all worth it. I would do it all over again in a heart beat.

Oh yeah, parking cost five dollars. Modern day miracle: Abs and I were able to scrape 5 dollars together! We had one 1 dollar bill and lots of quarters, dimes and nickels :) I amaze myself with all the crap I carry around... until next time peeps.

Bored Again... And I Didn't Have to Work Today

Being bored has never benefited a blog so much as mine. Another post!!! So I thought I would do another Info On Me post because they are fun. This one comes courtesy of my baby sister. My favorite part is the end when I have to divulge what I find attractive in the opposite sex... trust me, good times :)

Rachel Linell

Birthday: May 15

Birthplace: Castro Valley, CA

Current Location: Provo, Utah

Eye Color: Brown with some green and red, they are so weird.

Hair Color: Currently Black

Height: 5'4

Right Handed or Left Handed: Right - depends what I'm doing...

Your Heritage: Italian, German, Portuguese, Scandinavian and quite a few others I'm sure

The Shoes You Wore Today: My DCs

Your Weakness: Rosie Cheeks

Your Fears: Bees and Someone hiding in the back seat of my car - you know, the man with the hook hand!

Your Perfect Pizza:Pineapple and Black Olive - discovered it in high school and I'm never going back.

Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: I can only think of dirty things... Hey, that's a good goal - get my mind out of the gutter.

Thoughts First Waking Up: Where is that damn snooze button? Seriously, every morning.

Your Best Physical Feature: Um...really? Sat here for like 5 min. Apparently I have no self-esteem today :)

Your Bedtime: One-ish on a good night.

Your Most Missed Memory: I can't remember

Pepsi or Coke: Coke, always coke unless there is Mt. Dew

MacDonalds or Burger King: MacDonalds, but not for a few years now...

Single or Group Dates: Neither, no dating for this broad...

Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Sick me out!

Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate

Do you Smoke: No

Do you Swear: Unfortunately - quite a bit.

Do you Sing: Yes, but I hate for people to know that I do

Do you Shower Daily: Yes, if not twice

Have you Been in Love: Crushingly, yes.

Do you want to go to College: Been there, done that. I still need to go back and do more. Pathetic.

Do you want to get Married: Not sure, at the moment No.

Do you belive in yourself: Sure, at least some of the time.

Do you get Motion Sickness: Are you kidding me? Cloverfield almost did me in, I missed like 45 minutes because I had to close my eyes so I wouldn't ralph.

Are you a Health Freak: NO! Hell No!!! I mean, No.

Do you get along with your Parents: Yes, being in a different state is good.

Do you like Thunderstorms: Love them, Love!

In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Umm, nope.

In the past month have you Smoked: No, sick.

In the past month have you been on Drugs: Uh, does Aleve count?

In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yes

In the past month have you eaten Sushi: NO, and I never ever will...

In the past month have you been on Stage: No, no talents here

In the past month have you been Dumped: Uh, let's not talk about it. I think you have to date to get dumped, so no.

In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Michele's identity? Non-biological twins.

Ever been Drunk: Um, not intentionally? How drunk is drunk?

Ever been called a Tease: Yes, yes and yes again. And a number of other things...

Ever been Beaten up: I had a chair thrown at me. Does that count?

Ever Shoplifted: Don't think so, I bet I stole candy when I was kid... seems like something I would do.

How do you want to Die: In my sleep of old age, very painless - please.

What do you want to be when you Grow Up: Independently Wealthy (I know, foolish dreams)

What country would you most like to Visit: Brasil, Italy, Portugal

In a significant other...

Favorite Eye Color: Who cares? (please read next line in sing-songy voice) As long as they are beautiful (sigh).

Favorite Hair Color: Brown or Black or None (wink, wink - you know who you are). Please no Blondes or Gingers need apply.

NOTE: To all men from a massage therapist's point of view (and also my personal stance) Please shave your chest, back and any other pertinent body parts. My hands do not need to be tangled in your body hair. Ewwww! (Sickos - please get your minds out of the gutter... actually, stay, I need the company).

Best Clothing Style: None? Naked? Is that a style? Something laid back.

Should he drink or smoke: Neither.

Whats the first thing you look at in a boy: Honestly? Eyes, lips then Forearms ;)

Number of Piercings: Oooooo, lip please!

Number of Tattoos: Don't really care.

How many relationships can they have been in: Beggars can't be choosers. Just don't be a whore. I'm such a hypocrite...

So there you have it - More juicy details of my non-life. Infer from it what you will because if you know me... that's probably what I meant :) Happy Blogging!

The Rage

The Bet

I know what you are thinking... another post? Already? That's right. Well, I was chatting with Michele last night and we rehashed The Bet. What bet you ask? That's why I'm blogging again - to let you all know and let you get in on the action because I want to be rich some day! The Bet goes something like this...

If I get married before I'm 35 - I owe Michele $500.
If I don't get married before 35 (I'm thinking never) - Michele owes me $500.
Being engaged doesn't count.

What do you think? Any takers?

Here is some helpful information:

I'm 100% positive I am NEVER getting married and I'm okay with that for the most part.

Michele is,I'm going to say, 100% positive that I AM getting married.

More facts to help you determine the odds (and realize that I'm right):
I don't date
I work all of the time
I shot down the kid at work that tried to kiss me VERY recently (that's another story)
I'm a pessimist to the bone
I'm prickly and unloveable or so I've been told
AND
I don't really care right now

So there you have it. I will take bet confirmations in the comments section of my blog. There is a $500 dollar minimum and $1000 max. I'm excited to see my fortune start to roll in :)

If you need any additional information - let me know.

Edit: Another thing to add to the list - a little help from Michele. And I quote, "You are dumb, dumb as a box of rocks." Thanks Michele, I am that much closer to winning!

Throat Singing

These videos are weird, crazy and amazing. You have to watch it! The high pitched flute sounds that you hear are their voices!!! Seriously, I was mind freaked. It is no joke. It is a real thing called Throat Singing and apparently they do it alot in Mongolia. The second video breaks it down for you. Thanks to the Beardocrat for bringing this into my life :)

Bottom of the Barrel

That's where I'm scraping along - the bottom. The good news? I can only go up from here. So in a gesture of good faith... a list of good things in my life (No, the Master Plan has not been abandoned).

1. The X - the fact that Alex is still running brings insurmountable joy into my life.
2. My ability to Change Jobs - That's right, I'm on the move again.
3. Young Riders - Pretty much says it all.
4. Scary Movies that aren't that scary - I enjoy being frightened beyond all reason, I just don't handle it well. Some scary movies are just lame, but provide pleasant dreams of Asher. Sickos - get your minds out of the gutter.
5. Dreams - I have CRAZY dreams almost every night filled with celebrities, mythical creatures and more often than not MURDER. I want your blood all over me - so creepy.
6. Chocolate - my best friend. Sorry to all other BFFs who were just offended.
7. Snow melts - If you know me then you know I'm happiest when snow is gone.
8. Wakeboarding - Summer vacation anyone?
9. Music - Keeps me sane... no seriously.

And last but certainly not least
10. Sleep - My favorite hobby, I'm pretty good at it - especially with others (wink, wink) Plus it keeps the rage down to a quiet roar.

P.S. In a moment of rage - I would like everyone to know that trying to prove or convince me that reality is not as it is... pisses me off. Please take note - Thank you.

Tchau Meus Amorzinhos!
Rage